Untethering | I guess this is a life update

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Hey beautiful souls ♥︎

It has been quiet on here for the last weeks because I was so in the midst of something that I could hardly find words to describe what was going on but at the same time I could not focus which made it impossible to simply write about any of the other topics I have in the pipeline to share with you. I felt just really lost and somewhat stuck.

And after weeks of fighting it and trying to find answers and explanations I finally was able to surrender to the process, to fully embrace the transformation that is taking place. It was ugly, it was messy. Sleepless nights, attempts to numb the troubling emotions, physical symptoms of extreme burn out,… even suicidal thoughts creeped back in.

Right now everything is shifting and I am experiencing a massive breakthrough. So much is starting to make sense! And not just on a mind level, not because I can explain it rationally, but deeper: on a soul level I see veils lifting and an infinite amount of beautiful divine light is shining in. There is so much energy within me – I feel so vast, so free, so full, so huge. I experienced states like this before, glimpses of this immense power and light – but this is a new level…

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Page 9 of 365 – That Soulmate Fire

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I’m grateful for how one 5 min call with that soul mate floods my entire body with endorphins, lets me smile so big, takes my vision for a moment, gets me dancing on the street. How some connections are just so profound, so real, so pure that they can’t be described in words, making me wonder what we were in past lives and who you’ll be when I meet you again, forever thankful for having you in my life as a friend. And as much as my heart broke into bits back then – in recognizing you I found pieces of myself, in loving you I found home and in losing you my art…

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Page 8 – Goosebumps Conversations

Today I am grateful for ice flowers on my window this morning, my gigantic red scarf keeping me warm, for a ginger tea date with @travelrunplay, no smalltalk, just diving right in, deep into all the things that I am passionate about, astrology and energies and perception and growth and quantum physics and healing and love, real love, universal love, compassion (+therefor veganism) and femininity and consciousness and community and connection.  Continue reading

Isolation

It’s raining and I’m sitting by the open balcony window. I’m wearing long jeans and my feet are cold. I somehow like this weather. It fits how I feel inside right now. And I like the sound of raindrops hitting the windows and the roof of my apartment. But hey it’s August! This summer has been so weird. Colder. So much rain. Rarely seen a clear blue sky. I crave summer nights, those nights you dream of on grey winter days, nights spend in shorts and shirt, strolling through the streets, sharing stories and laughs. And I crave someone to share them with.

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