page 52 of 365 – The Full Experience

I’m grateful for coloring books and listening to Toltec wisdom, for flickering candles and sushi deliveries. Grateful for sunrise rays illuminating my walls in the morning, the days getting a tiny bit longer already. Grateful for the sunniest month ever even though I can’t leave the house at the moment – apparently a sunny & dry February is a good sign for the weather the following months, yay to all the random things you can put in a search engine.

I’m grateful for friends texting to check up on me because this isolation is definitely a challenge right now. But also grateful for getting a bit calmer with every day that I’m stuck at home. The past few days been tough, physically and mentally. But it could have come way worse. I can still use my hands, I have this warm safe place, I have my phone to talk to my closest ones and this app to connect with people all around the world, I have books and music and incense and candles and so many different teas I can try a new one every day. And I have my breath to help calm my nervous system and my heart that’s been racing even faster than my thoughts. And therefore I’m grateful for everything exactly as it is because it’s life. And that’s what we here for. Not to make it easy. But to make it full. 
I’m grateful for the pain being much better already and for managing to clean a bit because the neat freak part of me was getting nervous haha. For Deepak Chopra meditations helping me fall asleep, 432hz music and the presence of my plants. Wow I’m such a freak 🌿
Grateful for things coming up in my dream, memories I repressed, knowing that my subconscious mind is processing a whole lot at the moment.
I’m grateful for whatever will come. Being okay with every next chapter. Grateful for my mom’s help with #WeForUs.

For nothing being realer than whatever we can possibly imagine. Endless possibilities for us to bring into the visible material world, stem cells of matter just waiting for our thoughts to grab them, for us to tap into conscious creation. Oh what a wild world ✨ #jjgratitudebook

Page 51 of 365 – Time For Softness

I’m grateful for more clarity.
I’m good at being hard on myself which is useful in extreme situations. I know I can rely on myself in an emergency. Control I can. Care needs practice. Right now life requires me to be soft and gentle.

To stop. To rest. And that appears to be a bigger challenge than expected. Therefore I’m grateful for my body sending me clear signals, for everything kind of feeling out of whack. For being present with it. And the determination to learn this lesson.
I am used to severity. Now it’s time for softness. I made massive steps in the right direction the past few years but leftovers of old patterns sometimes surface, demanding me to face the deepest issues and continue to heal and break free.

So that I can embody myself fully and raise to my full potential as Jil in this lifetime. All that I strive to be for others I need to be for myself. It always starts with us.

I’m grateful for the mindfuck of exploring quantum physics and cosmic truths. For being alive right now as this global awakening, this collective transformation is taking place .

I’m grateful for a care package by @conscious_lifestyle_of_mine in the mail that literally saved my breakfast as I didn’t even have any oats left and I can’t go grocery shopping at the moment. And for the postwoman that brought it, as I haven’t seen any other face than my own since Sunday. And @aaronnight ‘s on my phone screen which makes me incredibly grateful for the technology that we have available. Making me wonder what might be possible in just a few years and hope that we will use it wisely.

Im grateful for memories that cheer me up, grateful for skinny love flowers growing in unlikely places, smiles telling tales when words seem way too small.
Grateful for when life feels easy for a bit. Suddenly just so full. A moment of bliss. A knowing.
For getting through lots of work and an exciting project coming up. .
For no fear of taking chances. For this year being one of saying YES. To opportunities in front of us. To union. To together. To risks. To adventure. To explore. To forgiveness. To health. To truth. To love. To life. To God. To myself.
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page 50 of 365 – Dropping the Pressure

50 days of 2018. I‘m grateful for the incredibly fast transformations that already took place, for beautiful manifestations and heart projects coming to life. Grateful for 7 eventful first weeks of the year, 2018‘s intensity and veracity, asking us to step up and into our power.
Well I’m not stepping anywhere right now and I try to really wind down, realizing how stressed I have been and how that was eating away at me.

I‘m grateful for dropping pressure I put on myself, this injury forcing me to just stop. For sleep being what I probably need most right now. For feeling my foot healing already… Grateful for setting boundaries where I feel my private space invaded, what can be difficult because I genuinely want to make space for everyone. But when things feel off we gotta listen, we gotta pay attention. I’m grateful for this beautiful livestream with you last night, for all the crazy loving feedback afterwards, leaving me with such a warm feeling but also humbling me. I’m grateful for being called an inspiration, a role model. For how much these words actually mean to me, blowing my mind & covering my body with goosebumps. For being able to share my story, ups and downs, learnings and blessings, my ideas and beliefs. Being me, unapologetically. To invite you to be. To hold space for us all. To explore. And reflect and learn and fall and rise. Building community. Installing hope. Making change. Reminding you, yes YOU, how precious you are. How needed. How loved… Never forget that you are here for a reason. You are divinely created, here to expand and grow and learn. Always protected, even through the craziest storms. Free yourself of worries and regrets, don’t strive for perfection, strive for YOU. The whole experience. #jjgratitudebook

Page 49 of 365 – Nothing For Granted

I’m grateful for hearing the birds sing songs that forebode springtime already and the beautiful weather outside, sun shining through my windows and turning the sky all fiery when it started melting into the horizon, birthing a starry night sky and this beautiful waxing crescent moon… 🌒 Grateful for all you beautiful beings that went for a walk for me or sent me yoga snaps. This experience really deepens the appreciation for my body. For how it carries me in this lifetime. Being a home for my soul in this time space reality. I want to protect this state like a treasure, plan to consciously give thanks daily and not take anything for granted it does for me.

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Page 48 of 365 – Patience With Me

I‘m grateful for all the small challenges that come with this injury. Like hopping down all the stairs from my apartment in the fifth floor. Like walking with crutches at first. Like taking a shower with this huge cast. Like people getting annoyed because you are in there way. Like not really being able to carry anything. Like the incredible pain that woke me up yesterday morning. I’m so grateful for these because they test me. They demand patience. And so much self love.  Continue reading

Page 47 of 365 – Learning My Lessons

I‘m grateful for the beautiful souls that are there for me right now. Yes situations like this truly reveal who we can rely on. Not just when it’s pretty. Not just when it serves them. I value every word and act of support so damn much. Like @marenschiller calling me and telling exactly what I needed to hear just when I started to lose my positivity after long hours alone at the emergency department. Or @hiekimyoga for visiting me there as he was at the hospital too. Or @marinathemoss offering to come here and take care of me. Beyond grateful for everyone who took the time to send me a private message and their best wishes. I‘m especially grateful for my mom driving me home and helping me to get food for the next few days. I was planning to get home alone (taxi + train ride) and was so relieved when she picked me up… Continue reading

Page 46 of 365 – Broken Foot

Uff – life is testing me right now. On Thursday I slipped on wet stairs, fell down and hurt my foot. It’s technically very bad timing (ok when is it not) as yesterday was super important, not just for me but also for @lindaboese. Somehow I managed to stay positive and push through, finish the job and go to the hospital right afterwards. Diagnosis: bone fracture. Prognosis: uncertain.  Continue reading

Page 44 of 365 – Spiritual Healing

Holy – yesterday was intense!!! I had a spiritual healing session in the evening and it was such a magical and transformative experience. You guys know how much I’m interested in these things and I’m SOOO beyond grateful that my mental health struggles alongside other factors forced me to dig deeper 🔮 It was through my pain and darkest times that I realized – no REMEMBERED that we are in fact all spiritual eternal beings having a human experience.

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