ANZEIGE / AD
We live in a vibrational universe. Everything is energy and therefore everything – including you and me – has a certain frequency. Our thoughts, emotions and actions impact our vibration as well as everything we consume.
ANZEIGE / AD
Hey my loves! ♥︎
I haven’t posted on here for a while as I am sharing on Instagram daily and write these super long captions on there – but it’s time to reawaken the blog because some topics just need more space! Today I want to talk to you about a very personal subject: periods!
As most of you might know this topic is very close to my heart as I have been struggling with amenorrhea for a while now and still work on getting my period back after having the gynefix copper coil for a few years. The whole healing journey has not only been about detoxing my body and rebalancing my hormones but also about reconnecting to my femininity. I experienced sexual abuse in the past and for me being feminine was subconsciously connected to being (ab)used. After certain traumatic experiences I actually started to completely dissociate from my body and my femininity.
I have been working on untying this and healing this trauma by releasing the painful emotions. The relationship to my body and my femininity has already changed incredibly and I have learned so much in this process. I actually do feel grateful for every chapter of my journey and I know that even (or rather especially) the most challenging experiences have their purpose. It’s part of my mission to turn my pain into medicine for not only myself but others. We can only truly help if we understand suffering – and what I experienced in my life has installed deep empathy and compassion into my being and served as fuel for my mission here…
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If you would have told me two years ago that I will wear a meditation mala, have an altar in my bedroom and put my crystals outside in full moon nights to charge them…. – oh well, how much things can change!! Those and other aspects of my spiritual practice have become so normal for me and actually have been so beneficial for my healing journey away from depression and anxiety towards inner peace and self love, that I can’t imagine my life without them ♥︎
Today I would love to share some information about crystals with you, which ones I have and how I use them. Although I get super nerdy and always do a ton of research I am definitely not an expert! I get my “knowledge” from many different online and offline sources and also just follow my intuition as much as possible. There’s no wrong or right when it comes to spirituality and I really just want to inspire and encourage you to explore and create your very own practice.
Hey beautiful souls ♥︎
It has been quiet on here for the last weeks because I was so in the midst of something that I could hardly find words to describe what was going on but at the same time I could not focus which made it impossible to simply write about any of the other topics I have in the pipeline to share with you. I felt just really lost and somewhat stuck.
And after weeks of fighting it and trying to find answers and explanations I finally was able to surrender to the process, to fully embrace the transformation that is taking place. It was ugly, it was messy. Sleepless nights, attempts to numb the troubling emotions, physical symptoms of extreme burn out,… even suicidal thoughts creeped back in.
Right now everything is shifting and I am experiencing a massive breakthrough. So much is starting to make sense! And not just on a mind level, not because I can explain it rationally, but deeper: on a soul level I see veils lifting and an infinite amount of beautiful divine light is shining in. There is so much energy within me – I feel so vast, so free, so full, so huge. I experienced states like this before, glimpses of this immense power and light – but this is a new level…
Hey you! ♥︎
I have been thinking a lot about my work, my content, my situation, life, everything… over the past week. As you probably know from my post on Instagram and my latest blogpost, I was planning to be in Kenya right now to bring donations, help and volunteer at the school there. This has been a big dream of mine for a while now and I was so excited to bring it to fruition finally. But life had a different plan and so I am currently bed ridden with a broken foot and severe adrenal fatigue symptoms – and therefor a lot more time to introspect and plan than expected.
Today I want to share some recent reflections with you and announce a few changes that I am making. Continue reading
I woke up this morning. Exhausted. More tired than I find myself at night. A burning headache. Under eye circles and puffy cheeks.
I woke up. Went to pee. Brushed my teeth. Washed my face. Back in my bedroom I closed the curtain. I can’t stand the light coming in. It’s the first grey day. I’m not complaining though. February has been so sunny. Unusually sunny.
Getting up with the sun has been so beautiful. It shines right into my bedroom when it rises, painting the walls bright orange for a bit. And when it sets my whole living room is illuminated. I cannot even describe how happy that made me, it was my solace for these last weeks that I spent at home. But the 7 day weather forecast swapped little suns with clouds and now it’s grey and gloomy again.
So a little over two weeks ago I broke my foot. I fell on stairs. Landed on my foot with a bang. And then it hurt. But I neglected the severity of the injury at first. You know, sometimes you trip, turn your ankle and it freaking hurts for about 10 min but then the pain fades. I was convinced it’s gonna fade. But it didn’t. And suddenly I couldn’t walk. Continue reading
I’m grateful for waking up this morning. Another day on planet earth and it’s not in any way less valuable just because I’m stuck at home and struggling with my health. Life is now. This moment is all we have.
And I want to treasure it by surrendering to it fully. Always. Not just when it’s easy because living feels effortless. I might be in pain. Might feel exhausted and spacey. But I’m alive! And I can choose what I make of this situation, how I respond, what vibrations I send out…
Such an important day. Not smooth. Not simple. But essential for things sorted out and taken care of. And difficulties tackled. Conversations made. Realizations had. For how little there’s happening in my physical reality right now as I’m stuck in my apartment all day there’s a damn lot happening within.
And maybe that’s why life forced me to stop & become still, cancel all plans, even this important trip to Kenia, so that I’m able to really hold space for myself and these processes happening during this intense ascension time right now✨
Through this situation I’m realizing how much I still struggle to take up room. In life. In relationships, even the closest ones. I’m grateful for this coming up in so many areas right now – this issue being right in my face so that I take action, find the underlying thought patterns and heal past experiences that caused me to so often feel “too much” or worry of being a burden for anyone. I share this because I imagine others might struggle with this too! Right now I’m learning that I’m allowed to claim my space, that I’m not fully living when I try to be as frugal as possible and that I’m blocking of deep connections by doing so…
I’m grateful get well letters in the mail, for vegan chocolate and all the snowflakes dancing in front of my windows. Grateful for having the guts to bring up uncomfortable topics but also the self reflection to admit where I’ve been off. I’m grateful for people that share honestly and unapologetically, for out of nowhere knowings and feeling so far away from my best right now, the utter discomfort life put me in, as that’s where we truly grow.
Today I’m grateful for snow on my face when I waited for my mom earlier. I wish I could head out for winter walks. Snow is rare here in the north of Germany and it’s so beautiful right now, especially the sunset hours when the sun breaks through the clouds before melting into the horizon, or in the mornings just before it rises, painting soft sorbet swirls on the sky. This sunny weather all throughout February is just as unusual as white covered fields and I miss my walks, miss the woods, where I spent so many hours discovering myself, where I always feel so home surrounded by trees and fairies. Continue reading
Last year I experienced so many small moments when I caught myself thinking „how is this even possible“???
When I was feeling so freaking grateful to be alive, remembering times not so long ago when I thought I couldn’t make it through another day… Continue reading